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Genesis 2.7

The first thing I must do to have a real celebration is recognize Who is God and Who is not! It will be a most glorious celebration with God on the throne of my heart instead of myself or any other idol for that matter. But for today, let’s begin by making sure that I am off the throne. That in and of itself, will take the others things off, because they are all there to serve me, are they not? Well anyway, that is what the enemy would have me belief when in truth, self and idols hold me in bondage. There is room for only One on the throne!

The following Scriptures are a good place to start. What does God say is always the very best place to start. Ssssooo God has said:

“then the Lord God formed the man of dust from the ground and breathed…

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G7Disciple poetic justice

Walking thru the valley of the shadow of death 

We already know there ain’t too many like us left. Appointed, anointed, and chosen to be the official reps of the Word the truth we know in depth. Battling in warfare, nothing about our life has been fair, haters wanna talk and stare, yet our gangster they yet dare to test. Cause though it may appear we are less, we were divinely created by the best. Destined for success  and strong enough to clean up this mess. It’s surreal to us too, we will confess.
Time is on the go, the things we have been revealed… you don’t even bout much know
We are loved by Yahweh  more than every flake in Antarctica snow. Surrendered, filled with fire, today matters, and the future will be even radder. All we want to do is Higher yah is the plug and he is our supplier of everything we can imagine or even desire. We are nothing without faith and love with that could fill up every corner and space…Can’t wait to get back home to see his face.
Written on 12/11/16

Late night thoughts 

Midnight thoughts

APRIL 17, 2016 · PUBLIC

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I just reactivated my facebook. Didnt really want to but obviously, I can’t contact people how i wanted to so i did what was needed. But i sometimes questions why i even try to get myself out there. Networking is not my thing but i am an awesome writer with enlightening insights and i also offer a few useful gifts i am willing to share with you if you would like to go deeper in an aspect of your life you can message me and talk! Facebook

But this is an oldie but a goodie. 

So Christina has been having difficult times. I swear on everything my soul is at a spiritual war. My heart truly believes I am here on this earth to do big, miraculous things in the name of YHWH but my flesh is like you ain’t gonna do nothing significant, you’re just a little girl stuck in Alabama.
True that, but one day, not tomorrow or probably even this year I will no longer be stuck and I WILL do some revolutionary things. Still figuring all that out but ya know what? Out of my 28.4 years of living this is what I know to be absolute true facts about life, the world, humans, and myself
1. God is real. Like for real. Believe or not, one of these days you will see. “…For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told” Habakkuk 1:5
2. Love is all or nothing. You either do or dont. Don’t waste people’s time if you know that you don’t plan on spending forever with them and loving them even when they are wrong. “Love is patient, love is kind, it does not envy, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs” 1 Corinthians 13: 4-5
3. I’ve had more bad days than good ones. I bet that blows your mind because I stay smiling and positive (97% of the time, I’m human. I think) but I know that every single horrible thing that has happened to me was to prepare me for my future . “Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God.” 2 Corinthians 1:3
4. I’m a freaking genius and school only contributed like 10% of the knowledge I have. I love to read and observe life how it is. I can testify that my life is nothing but what the common folk would say is impossible, very possible. I grew up on both sides of the traclass. I was raised with a silver spoon but I ran and ruled the streets. “The spirit of the Sovereign Lord is on me, because the Lord has anointed me to preach good news to the poor. He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim freedom for the captives and release from darkness for the prisons, to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor and the day of vengeance of our God, to comfort all who mourn, and provide for those grieve in Zion- to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of gladness instead of mourning, and a garment of praise instead of a spirit of despair. They will be called oaks of righteousness, a planting of the Lord for the display of his splendor.” Isaiah 61:1-3
5. I don’t like being called a Christian because I believe religion is the #1 way to step back from what the real truth is. I’m a soldier of Jah’s army. “I am a servant of this gospel by the gift of God’s grace given me through the working of his power. Although I am less than the least of all God’s people, this grace was given to ME: to preach to the Gentiles (yous guys) the unsearchable riches of Christ, and to make plain to everyone the administration of this mystery, which for ages past was kept hidden in God, who created ALL things.” Ephesians 3: 7-9
6. I cuss and I listen to secular music and always will. First of all, who even decided cuss words are cuss words? Man? I won’t even go into detail how I feel about this. I’m am English major…I have read the dictionary. It’s a word. A mere word. And cuss words definitely vary all over the world and honestly in this day and age maybe being real and not changing who I have always been will make my purpose more effective because I can still be the gangster that I am and be chosen. You can too! And I’m a musician and after God it’s my most favorite thing in the world. Music saved my life. And I love every type and genre. I love to perform music (I can play pretty much every instrument). God has definitely spoke to me through songs that weren’t “Christian”. God can do anything and everything. It’s foolish to even think that even in the worst of situations God can’t change it in an instant or be there. “To the chosen lady and her children whom I love in the truth- and not I only, but also all who know the truth because of the truth, which lives in us and will be with us forever ” 2 John 1:1
7. I am loved. There hasn’t been not one single day in my life somebody didn’t tell me that they loved me. “May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word.” 2 Thessalonians 2: 16-17

That’s all I know so far. And that’s good enough for me. I am blessed and highly favored. I was chosen. And I know what I am talking about and believe it with my all my heart. I’ll die for the cause if need be.

“I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or want. I can do EVERYTHING through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4: 11-13

Sunshyne Day

2 year anniversary, first 3 friends in a week, here is a story 

So about 2 weeks ago when me and lee were working on the floats for mardi gras, we somehow was drawn to this cemetery. Magnolia Cemetery at the end  of George Street from Government to be exact.  I am not gonna lie, we slipped through a hole in the gate cause its freaking HUGE and the front gate is on Ann St.  My mom has already stated her mind about this, which the reality of this situation is far less inferrior of other adventures ive managed to randomly find myself on throughout my whole life.  

The area we lurked through, none of the graves had a death before like 1905. Crazy right? We took some pretty amazing pictures. And the one included just so happens to be on of my favorite ones from that day.  Anyways, last night i was just investigating the history of Mobile which of course led me to the whole dialogue of plateau…. long story short, Meaher (the name of the grave), Timothy Meaher to be exact was the builder of the last slave ship the Colsinda which he then proceeded to illegally smuggle slaves after they had been freed from Haiti and West Africa which brought Kunta Kente, who was the last slave alive, founder of the homelands. White people privilege was stronger than ever in 1865, so of course Meaher was acquitted of all charges of illegally smuggling slaves into the port, due to lack of evidence…..  …… …..  but to quiet them and not have angry exslaves riot,  he actually owned Africa town which at the time valued $100,000 and gave it to them. So basically i chose a hustling slave boat builder go getter catacomb from my true past heritage to take a selfie with.l and didnt even know it. Crazy how life ends up like that, huh? 😀😎😘✊


There was a time when the Divine nature was not my state of Mind. 

You dont know where youre going til you know where you have been. 

Ill never speak again
Im belittled by my alleged friends
Dubbed minster spin , ironically truth my foes hend
Cause i remember who why where and when
And when i will neverdepend on a world..especially a fuck nigga based from and entertains the thought of sin
Charasmatic like a mother fucker, actually got me questioning who am i really within?
Hanging on a limb, the finest of all the gems
Facades got me feeling lost just like what really happened stone henge
Yall niggas can stand around and pretend,
Wasting time that isn’t even yours like babbling ass bitches
Living life on an whim, a road dark and grim
You playing in the devils den, clucking like a hen
Yes, im talking shit, ya mad? do something then
I aint sorry if this may hurt or offend you and your sorry ass trend but
Your truth aint the truth trying to send
Ill stand up and sit down so we can begin the end of the negligence to transcend
And thought capacity to possibly comprehend that my word game is proper, setting niggas off with my chopper.
Cold like Gucci, bitch brrr
No one could ever compete with her
I try to stay humble like Job from the Land of Ur
But i state facts, yes sir
 Youve won the battles but the war you will never win
Im broken, jaded, cursed, but chose to attend to the flaws of men an
Assignment to correct hearts that are on negative cataclysmic levels when my own has yet to mend
About the shit you put me in…things you still grin and laugh at time and time again
If i could just be me… best believe, i’m gone with the Wind and my universe agrees 10% is more than enough of a dividended
As God as my witness I’ll never go hungry again.
Im the next of a divine kin so
Frankly my dear, I dont give a damn
Recognize and respect who i truly am…
Far from a scam, more real than your likes on instagram, ill kick your teeth through your diaphragm, rob you like uncle sam-i have no mercy like soldiers in Vietnam
Which is why i question and evidently condensed my self- the virtues of the Great I am.
A woman of wisdom, i have risen, a decision
through my personal prison prism
Why don’t I write peaceful psalms or hymns
Representing occult realms?
Being gangster isnt a choice, but the final decision
Man has got me going ham cause I pray for iust one to understand, shit, can anyone just give me a hand?
I won’t  coensend with the law of the land, might as well declare me a permanent ban
I am worthy of being name brand and at the top of the chain of command
Foundation solid concrete and not zigguarts made of sand
This flow is wilder than the Tilban yet declaration of the silence of the lamb.

& then he came… Selah 

A dope devotional i got in my email. Its was called “mediation”


n’t suppose that I came to do away with the Law and the Prophets. I did not come to do away with them, but to give them their full meaning. 

Heaven and earth may disappear. But I promise you that not even a period or comma will ever disappear from the Law. Everything written in it must happen. 

If you reject even the least important command in the Law and teach others to do the same, you will be the least important person in the kingdom of heaven. But if you obey and teach others its commands, you will have an important place in the kingdom. 

You must obey God’s commands better than the Pharisees and the teachers of the Law obey them. If you don’t, I promise you that you will never get into the kingdom of heaven.